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omg i cant belive im not happy
i was soooo happy b 4 that i thought nothin could make me unhappy
I WAS FUCKIN WRONG
this is actually THE WORST DAY OF MY LIFE
its even worse than wat my uncle did 2 me
I WOULD RATHER GO THROUGH THAT AGAIN THAN THAN FEEL WAT IM FEELIN NOW !!!
i cant belive its over
EVERYTHIN WAS SO GREAT AN NOW ITS OVER !
im neva gona see karlo or paula or touch them or hug them or hear them laugh again.
im just waitin 4 the day i find out they have gone...
waitin 4 the day someone tells me now its the time 4 me 2 go 2
iv never been more scared in my whole life
but it doesnt matter
i wont b leavin anythin behind
the only 2 things i care about would already b gone
so i can do it no problem